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Day 21 last day

1. Record 3 new things that you’re grateful for 

1. finished this challenge!

2. got my acting exercises group started

3. started doing hot yoga again

2. Journal about one positive experience you’ve had

After much none exercise, doing hot yoga today was not as hard as the first time i tried it. After I felt really really happy. As I walked home I was more spry and more aligned and although my back hurt it felt good because it felt aligned. It was nice out and I felt like the sweating I did had lifted the weight that I feel on my face all the time. I felt better about how I looked and I felt I had a presence.

3. Exercise

Did hot yoga today.

4. Meditation 

5. Random Acts of Kindness

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Day 20 new scene study

1. Record 3 new things that you’re grateful for 

1. asking for and insisting on scene selection to target my acting problems

2. new scene is challenging, if i can do it well i will learn something

3. My focus on using words for scene study falls in line with what I discovered the other day.

2. Journal about one positive experience you’ve had

3. Exercise

4. Meditation 

5. Random Acts of Kindness

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Day 17 last spectral show

1. Record 3 new things that you’re grateful for 

1. getting out and socializing after the show

2. experience of the spectral shows

3. connecting body and voice with intention and with idea of convincing someone listening and watching

2. Journal about one positive experience you’ve had

3. Exercise

4. Meditation 

Meditation is usually done in quite but I practiced some speaking meditation which I felt connected with my previous meditation of inner and outer awareness. Using focus on my voice and inner and outer awareness, I discovered new sensations of communicating and expressing with my voice and connecting it to my body and allowing emotions to fall in place. When I was focused on my voice and what I was trying to say with the image of someone listening to see if I was real or acting, I felt the great sea of subtleties in my voice. Each word can be expressed with so many subtle nuances that say something specific and together they are like a painted picture thrust forward into the mind of the listener. I felt that the nuances were so varied and there was so much room in speech to play that it was easy to get caught into letting the emotions create the nuances naturally but this fell into a generalized trap. Thinking of intentions and ways to convince or ways to express let me use my voice with more diversity and if i opened myself, emotions would come subtly and naturally with the expression of my voice as long as I stayed focused on truly using my voice and body to say something as if I needed to convince someone listening that I was for real and not acting. It may be a similar trap to focus on your voice too much because the emotions and true meaning get lost. Focus on the intent, the goal is vital and openess to be affected is like a switch you turn on as you pursue using your voice to get your goal. Use your voice and stay relaxed, even as you convey anger using your voice, stay relaxed and focus on showing the true inflexion which you have observed in life and you will not feel blocked. This sounds like a disconnected way to approach acting but it will allow you to play freely and the emotions come afterwards if you are free and you use your voice well.

5. Random Acts of Kindness

 

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Day 15 Spectral show week 3

1. Record 3 new things that you’re grateful for 

1. didn’t buy that bike on craigslist

2. cell phone i wanted is now on sale

3. managed to go to be without eating a large meal right before

2. Journal about one positive experience you’ve had

We did some vocal warm ups without our usual leader and it was a nice moment under the full moon to do the exercises with  Ashley and David.

3. Exercise

4. Meditation 

I did some short meditation inspired by Christine’s blog on meditation. I realized that focus goes inward and outward in different ways. Intense focus on breathing and feeling is a start, only when I start to add the awareness of my enviornment do i realized there is a whole new level of being that I can be mindful of. There is much concentration and relaxation required for me to feel what is going on in just these 2 states. I guess this is 2 levels. I heard there are at least 7!

5. Random Acts of Kindness

I have started returning the favor of telling quast to break his leg. he has not missed one night to tell me this, so i think he is very superstitious and would appreciate the wish.

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Day 14 Staying focused

1. Record 3 new things that you’re grateful for 

1. now have a place to meet for my acting group

2. naruto manga to read today

3. did some exercise

2. Journal about one positive experience you’ve had

I got to the show on time and met up with Olivia and then with spectralites and alison aryara who i did a scene study class with. It was good and things worked out pleasantly for once.

3. Exercise

100 pushups and sit ups

4. Meditation 

5. Random Acts of Kindness

I really liked my friends performances in the oliver fanny show and took the time to thank them on facebook.

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Day 13 End of scene study

1. Record 3 new things that you’re grateful for 

1. copying my demo folder to dvd worked

2. doing my journal today on time

3. getting 2 for 1 to screaming chicken show

2. Journal about one positive experience you’ve had

I opened my acting book and the page was on Loose Ends, the chapter was about the scene I am working on for the last time today. Something is trying to tell me something. I don’t know what but I feel it is a positive experience to feel something is helping me. Perhaps my will is bringing things to my life that I focus on. I need then to focus on more positive things and less factual things and the positive things will manifest!

3. Exercise

4. Meditation 

5. Random Acts of Kindness

asking a friend that wanted to see a show to me to see a show

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Day 12 Day went by fast

1. Record 3 new things that you’re grateful for 

1. Getting a nice thumbs up from the camera guy after my audition

2. Started doing more exercise again

3. got a facebook msg from a friend i haven’t heard from in awhile about my new photos.

2. Journal about one positive experience you’ve had

I had an audition and afterwards coming out the other guy from the audition who I had talked to briefly had his kids running to him saying ‘daddy, daddy’. It put a smile on my face. I could feel how much the kids loved their dad and how they missed him if only for a few minutes.

3. Exercise

I did at least 100 pushups and 50 situps… my compulsively health exercise regiment is coming back

4. Meditation 

5. Random Acts of Kindness

I was kind and made pleasant conversation to otherwise nervous actors at my audition